1. drinking a bottle of wine before leaving my apartment just to be able to talk (2014)
2. being social for the first time without needing alcohol to feel comfortable (2015)
3. crying in the middle of the street into the phone to you, and strangers asking me if i was okay when you didn't (2015)
3. eating only a grapefruit for a whole day, two days, and forgetting to eat all together (2011, 2012, 2015)
4. being so afraid to be alone with myself that fucking whoever seems like a better option (2012, 2013, 2014, 2015)
5. giving up on family (don't remember when it started and it hasn't ended)
6. loving someone and then learning who they are (2015)
7. not recognizing what i am (don't remember when it started, and it has gotten worse)
8. when, apparently, you remember nothing you did in an entire year (2013)