IMPORTANT TO REMEMBER

"so, in that case, just make some photos outside and make friends with the animals."

for when i return home and am going insane from the people around me that i cannot identify with slightly

TALLINN, ESTONIA

Last Sunday, my closest friends and I departed on a cruise from Stockholm to Tallinn. I had the most wonderful time imaginable. I feel so lucky to be surrounded by such beautiful people, minds, cities and experiences.  Just having the opportunity to learn from them and travel with them is incredible for me.

Tallinn was absolutely charming. Such cute detail and character in the architecture, shapes, and colors. I even found the trees and the people interesting.

It felt so good to arrive back in Stockholm. Despite only being absent for three days, I genuinely missed it. When the train passes through central Stockholm, I am still amazed by its beauty. It is perfect here and a place I will always think of as home.  

THE FIRST OF MANY MORE REGRETS TO COME

i meant what i said when i said i would rearrange my plans and change for you. you know me, i've always been the kind with easy confidence. confident enough to honestly believe that nothing out there's stopping me, especially not someone who's not loving me. listen here, i told you i could live on without loving you. i was bluffing then, but it seems that just might have been the truth.

THE VELVETEEN RABBIT

"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real, you don't mind being hurt." 

"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

OCTOBER IN STOCKHOLM

hair happiness

shoe happiness

friendship happiness

 beauty happiness

ear happiness

I'LL JUST SHUT THE CURTAINS SO YOU WON'T WAKE UP

you are the sand surrounding crocodile's legs. you are the half moon in the daylight. the broken chair in the kitchen.  the speed at which clothes tumble through the laundry chute. the wallpaper's destroyed and faded design. the loss of my favorite yellow cardigan.  the way the window sticks.  you were wearing a feathered blouse and a string of colors around your head. your shoes were orange. i don't care for orange but i liked your shoes. i didn't know what to think of it then, but i wish i'd have said something of importance. nothing with meaning came out of my mouth then, i hadn't had time to prepare for this, and you, in your feathered blouse and string of colors and terrible orange shoes, could have shown me the entire world. and i knew it. my mouth left frozen and stuck and longing to explore your mannerisms.

MI VIDA AQUI

i love it
french music
italian coffee and flatmate
spanish family
swedish crowds
german recluses
french bus partner
polish sleepovers
absolutely beautiful.


endlessly saying "i wish the whole world was this diverse"