here, i have friends that instantaneously became family; which now extends and exists from across the atlantic ubiquitously.
i learned to enjoy the process of life. enjoy the process of creating. where in the united states, we live a pre-packaged life, programmed to do what we see in the media, programmed to do what universities say we need. working toward a common goal in the end: wealth, security, happily married, 50's family style. here, it is all about enjoying the process all throughout, not just the product in the end that is simply unattainable, perhaps even nonexistent.
i lived here subconsciously always aware of the shrinking timeline because it was always there. in the first weeks when we bought a hookah, asking who will take it when we go home. it doesn't matter and that isn't important but even in the beginning there were commitments i didn't want to make. it is hard to live appreciating everything when you always know it isn't forever and is utterly and completely temporary. the situation where all of us are together again is never plausible after this and i can't fathom this kind of instant separation and loss of everything i've experienced.
unable to express where my life has gone throughout the semester.
goodbye alex.